Grand MaL!

You are alert, laughing, joking,
not knowing that an attack is coming,
as electrical impulses begin to misfire,

in your brain, a feeling comes on,
known yet unknown.

The impulses become more erratic,
you're quickly engulfed into darkness;

A black hole of nothingness grabs you.
Your body contorts in response,
struggling to climb out of the void
where sounds, vision, feelings,
memories are gone.

The body continues to struggle

against the nothingness,

with memories trapped in

the void, as the blackness holds

you within its grasp.

You continue to travel

through the emptiness,
falling, grasping, tense,
unaware of the world around you.

Suddenly, you reach the other side,
back into awareness,
fatigued, confused,
fearful, disoriented,
looking through a thick fog.

Unsure,surrounded by those not quite familiar,
as you slowly, oh so slowly, struggle back to the present,
your senses, less entangled within the nothingness,
back into the light, aware of sounds, smells, pain.

So scary, this grip that seized you without warning,
taking you to an unknown place,
a black hole,
a dimension that can't be seen,
heard or remembered.

Traveling from reality into nothingness,
only to return aware that it has happened again.

How long did it last this time?

One Day Not Someday

One day you'll sit and smile
No wondering why or how
Everything will be all right

Dad will still be with you day and night
A warmth you feel upon your face
Your dad has just given you a kiss

Not today I know you'll say
Or even tomorrow will your pain go away
To a place that isn't hurting so, but

Someday soon you're pain will ease
Once you know that you will see
Memories of tender touches
Even kisses, smiles and the such
Do seem distant and hard to see
Always he is near to thee
Your pain will heal this know

One Day, Not Someday
your grief will go.

Waste Away

Has it been just 3 years ago?
That I felt good about my soul?
It seems to be an eternity,
since my body has been good to me.

Day by day I watch my health
turn from vitality into just a shell
Each day I weigh a little less,
how did I get myself into this mess?

My muscles now no longer firm,
Hands are crippled, feet are numb
Sometimes I feel like this is dumb.

Why can't they find a diagnosis?
They act like this is just a neurosis.

Pain intense, sensations fleeting
Eating, eating all the time.
No weight is gained it seems sublime.

I've lost control of my destiny,
what is it that God wants of me?
Where is it that he wants me to go?

So I hope the answer is revealed
that he still keeps concealed

Until that day of revelation comes
I'll try to keep from being numb
I no longer want to waste away
perhaps the answer comes today

© 7/29/2010 M S Wyatt All Rights Reserved

Nicotine

Oh! That nasty nicotine,
takes your fat and leaves you lean;
but once the weight is all gone..
nothing's left but skin and bones

Then new problems will arrive,
no longer able to survive..
First you'll struggle to draw a breath,
and still pick up that nasty cigarette.

Past your lips you'll draw the smoke;
into your lungs you'll take that toke.
Then that nasty little drug;
will attach itself to things in your blood.

Once that wicked deed is done;
you'll not quit with just that one.
Now you're hooked you've been reeled in.
this is as bad as vodka or gin.

Rehab may be your only route;
to give this habit the final boot.
But with support and determination;
you'll be free of this frustration.

So don't give up keep on trying,
it's better by far than the buying-
another pack to keep you sane--
when it really causes pain.

Land of Dreams v1

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Magical faeries grasp my hand,
and take me to another land.

Pink sails billow from the wind
as I sail upon a shining sea.

Faeries, elves and starry skies,
musical sounds caress my mind

Chocolate drops of rain fall down,
as the faeries dance around.

The man sits within the moon,
and treats of sweets at my feet

Once again I turn the page
and new visions come my way

Stories from around the world
of faeries, dragons and leprechauns

Soon I fall into the land of dreams
where the faeries take me away

Only You

Once again, we come away,
Never ready for another day.
Life is full of amazing things
You my friend truly bring

Your bounty of love & spirit
Out in the world you freely give it
Until tomorrow comes I say--

Only You
can make my day.

Land of Dreams v2

The land of dreams it calls to me
memories of sugary creams
Pink billowing sails a ship at sea
The land of dreams

Magical faeries grasp my hands
as chocolate drops of rain fall down
taking me to another land

Musical sounds caress my mind
as faeries dance on moonbeams
once again the clock rewinds
The land of dreams